This past week we had the privilege and honor to go to the Andrew Wommack Ministers Conference. We’ve been before but never for the complete week. It was amazing, refreshing, rewarding and we just soaked it all in. The speakers were real with real life messages that we could all relate to. It was encouraging seeing how many pastors are on the same page we are with pastoring in this season of time and how strong we are together. Brings hope to us all.
I enjoyed a week of sitting in His Presence without too many distractions. It was something I needed right now. I needed healed of the wounds of the past few months and encouraged that I was one the right path. Sometimes we wonder when we feel so bombarded with stuff and never seem to be able to catch a break but hear Him say, “Well done my faithful servant.” We all need to hear those words when distractions seem to be hitting us from every direction.
My time is limited again this week as we spent our time with our precious friend, Bill, before he went home to Kenya. But I hope I can get my heart across. I’ve been seeking the Lord on what to share with you and I think the thing that I am dealing with right now if keeping my mind on His Words. My thoughts get scattered, the memories hurt and my break starts aching. I’ve dealt with unforgiveness, taking my thoughts captive, having courage, and the words of my mouth.
Even though I know this truth it hit be pretty hard when I read it this week. “What is happening through His Spirit I CANNOT maintain with fleshly efforts.” What He is doing in the Spirit what makes me think it will still work when I am in the flesh? That’s a DAH but I find myself feeling like a failure because what I thought and experienced in my intimate time with Him disappears later in the day. Of course, it will disappear if I get my thoughts and words in unforgiveness and anger. I’m trying to maintain it but I know I need to keep my thoughts on Him. I hadn’t TOTALLY surrendered some of life’s situations to Him. The situations that hit you in the face everyday are the ones that at times I get distracted with and let the flesh fly. That’s where the verse He gave me about 6 weeks ago becomes so powerful and such truth for my life.
“Since we are approaching the end of all things, be intentional, purposeful, and self-controlled so that you can be given to prayer. Above all, constantly echo God’s intense love for one another, for love will be a canopy over a multitude of sins.” 1 Peter 4:7-8
I have to intentionally and purposefully with self-control take every thought captive and give it to Him. This isn’t always easy. I let the hurt and frustrations of my situations get the best of me at times and I lost some self-control. My situations felt justified of the anger and hurt I was carrying but that was the lie of the enemy. When one thing after another came and caught us so off guard we ended up exhausted and open to letting the little foxes remain in our vineyard. Sometimes you just felt too weary to fight the good fight of faith. At least that is where I have been. I could tell anyone else not to do that but the grief of losing our grandson, Caleb, put me in a place of almost despair and then when the situation with Mom hit I just didn’t know what to do with it all. But I am learning, 😊. I am more than a conqueror. I am His and He is holding me through it all. I spent precious time with the Lord every morning but then let the rest of my day and situations dictate me.
“We can demolish every deceptive fantasy that opposes God and break through every arrogant attitude that is raised up in defiance of the true knowledge of God. We capture, like prisoners of war, every thought and insist that it bow in obedience to the Anointed One.” 2 Corinthians 10:5
“You must catch the troubling foxes, those sly little foxes that hinder our relationship. For they raid our budding vineyard of love to ruin what I’ve planted within you. Will you catch them and remove them for me? We will do it together.”
Song of Solomon 2:15
I am starting to identify my distractions, the issues of life that cause me to get off track. I have to consciously surrender those to the Lord and renew my mind to His Words and thoughts.
“Jesus answered him, “‘Love the Lord your God with every passion of your heart, with all the energy of your being, and with every thought that is within you.’ This is the great and supreme commandment.” Matthew 22:37-38
One more verse and I will continue this another time.
“Here’s what I’ve learned through it all:
Don’t be impatient;
Be entwined as one with the Lord.
Be brave and courageous,
And never lose hope.
Yes, keep on waiting—for he will never disappoint you!” Psalm 27:14
Isn’t He awesome to give us every thought we need to think on so that we will be healed!!